Another Day In Period One

So Marlon and I have decided to do a post.

The topic exactly, we have yet to decide.

So Marlon, what will we be talking about in today's post?

Let's talk about broken relationships & what could have been, I say.

& he agrees.

Five minutes ago I was going through my school account,

cleaning up lost files from last year so I can send them away to my computer at home.

And I found this.

Heartache, heartbreak;;

Loving was so easy

Forgetting is so hard

And you left me here alone

To piece back my broken heart

Trying hard to let go

But I still don’t feel the same

And I feel like an idiot

And like I’m the one to blame

You obviously were over it

And you say you’re over me

What good is it to love,

If you don’t know what it means

You say I was a waste of time

That I was never fair

Even though it seemed like this whole time

I was the only one that cared

My friends all ask me why

I still bother with you

But since you’ve been gone (I don’t know why)

I’m still in love with you"

Strange how I came across this. I don't remember when I wrote this.

Maybe sometime last year when I was wallowing in self-pity in Period 6 English.

We live and learn from broken relationships.

And now onto Marlon's story.

The story of a certain individual who fails to notice the feelings of another person who possess the lack of courage to profess their love out loud.

Or liking?

It's sad, I think.

How people can fail to see the feelings that one might have for them.

And when they do find out, they brush it off as if they feel nothing.

Care for nothing.

Don't really give a shit.

But if you also look at it this way;

It's high school.

We're not all supposed to fall in love now and put ourselves in a serious relationship.

But you know the good thing?

Even through break-ups, broken hearts, and unspoken feelings,

we live and learn.

Walk Away

I am so scared to switch schools it's not even funny.

At first I thought, yeah okay no problem. But now I'm so worried.

I don't think I've ever felt so lost before.

But I know what I want. So why do I feel the way I do?

Why is something that's supposed to make me feel so much more confident about my future,

making me look back at it and feel like I made a bad decision?

I really enjoy going to RHS.

I really think I've grown to love public school. Not that anything was ever wrong with it, but it's made me change a lot of my perspectives and the kind of person I am and was.

But I know nothing, or barely anything about Maryknoll.

About what to expect.

It's going to be Junior year soon.

After surgery I have the whole summer.

And then August 18th.

The date I'm somewhat dreading.

There's about 5 weeks left of school.

And I think right now I'm the only one who can actually wait for school to end.

But at the same time I'm thinking maybe it's time to think this over for myself and get more optimistic.

I mean, since it is going to happen.

Sweet Victory

Tonight was an amazing game.

I'm so happy I can't sleep.

All that hard work, all that (funny-looking) running with the tire that was two times the size of Brianne, running with the weights, running and practicing like there was no tomorrow.

Well, we're OIA Red Division Champions.

First time in school history!

It's time to get ready for the State Tournament.

And we're not going to let any ILH team step all over us.

We're going to fight just like we did tonight, and we're going to win.

As for now?

Feeling brighter than sunshine (:

I think this sense of euphoria is even more than happiness itselg.