Post 15.

I dislike Maryknoll.

Rough Riders > Spartans.

Someone save me from this suffocating atmosphere of unsocial-dom.

I'm craving familiar faces, friendly sights, and a better schedule.

I even miss Teenbiz. But I still have access to it.

Wow.

My blog posts get shorter and shorter every time.

"I felt sadness."

That quote just popped back into my head.

I remember when and where those exact words were said.

And I reflect back upon those minimal times.

When we'd sit there together and talk with our minds.

And together we'd be, our own little bubble.

Away from the drama, the stress, and the trouble.

As sad as it is to reminisce that last letter.

Forever I'll keep it, because doing that would be better.

Hello Blog

I haven't gone on since July.

Guess my life's just not interesting anymore.

Well actually, it's the opposite,

it's getting crazy!

Maryknoll is so small.

Volleyball is boring because I can't play.

Two more weeks till I can.

Hi Riki & Eun-young & Dara.

I miss Roosevelt.

I wish we had a Homecoming.

Last Post: July 10.

Aha, and today is July 26. My oh my.

That's not any fun now is it.

Maryknoll tryouts are today.

*Sigh*

And I get to be the crippled girl on the side who can't do anything but watch.

Okay yeah so more than anything I'm NERVOUS.

Right, like I'm supposed to walk in there like I know what I'm doing.

HAH.

Whatever.

Well a lot has happened in the past what, 16 days?

Hung out with a lot of people, went shopping and ended up getting the money that I spent back in my wallet O_O

Yeah kind of strange when I was putting all my stuff away and I end up with the money that I spent.

Not that I really need new clothes anyway, because I have to wear a uniform -_-

OH JOY OH JOY OH JOY a blue skirt.

Just what I've ALWAYS wanted.

Aheh~

But my schedule is pretty alright.

Just hope I can keep up and fit into the groove of things easily.

Oh who am I kidding.

If I could do it at Roosevelt I can try at Maryknoll.

I wish that this was my last week of summer.

I wish that I could start on August 3rd.

I wanna go back to Disneyland!

Oh yeah, I didn't even talk about my trip yet did I.

Well here.

In a nutshell, some points of the trip.

-Ramada Hotel whatever Inn thing SUCKED, so ghetto! Sorry >.> It was horrible. Broken refrigerator, broken tv, spiderweb in the bathroom, broken toilet, one bed, a smoke-filled "non-smoking" room. Yuck. And it was, quote me, a "tournament-approved" hotel. PSH.

-Alexe was my trip buddy (: Don't know how I would've survived, my goodness.

-Legoland & IHOP after the drive to San Diego. Took forever, I got so carsick.

-Brother's team came in third in the showcase division. The games were actually really enjoyable. Except for the weird weather. It was so hot in the sun, and then when you went in the shade it was unbelievably COLD. Like seriously freezer cold. O____0

-Sea World, I got splashed by a sting ray, fed it, saw Shamu, teased a walrus, fun times, fun times.

-DISNEYLAND. Felt like a little kid again, all sucked into the lies that if you believe in something it will happen. All the magic and whatnot. Oh I WISH. We shut down Thunder Mountain by accident because Coach Cord stepped over the barrier and onto a sensor. The ride was shut down for over five hours. Whoops. California Screamin, Matterhorn, Space Mountain first thing in the morning. Rollercoasters are awesome. ^_^ I'd go back if I could. But the best was cutting in line to get a picture with Mickey Mouse :)

-Shopping at Fashion Valley Mall.

-Mom's birthday, Coldstone for breakfast.

-Watching HSM3 on the ride from San Diego to Anaheim. Brought back some hilarious memories.

I think that's all I can say for now.

I feel like playing Rock Band.

I NEED TO FINISH MY SUMMER READING.

It's so hard to get into this Barack Obama book.

The Alchemist was a lot easier.

I need to take notes.

Okay well, I am tired and I need to get ready soon, so that is all.

Did any of that make sense? :o

12:34:56 on 7/8/9

Supposedly this thing is supposed to happen every 100 years.

Which is pretty cool, since it's pretty soon.

I wonder if I have the patience to post it at that exact time.

Haha, nah.

Maybe if I forget.

So today, I'm pretty sure I lost a friend.

We used to be so close too.

Close to the point of a relationship?

I guess.

But it never happened. It's all in the past now and since we talked it over and decided to let it go, I better follow up with the decision we made.

And now, it's like everytime I get close to somebody I end up pushing them far away, our friendship breaks, and ignorance start.

I don't understand any of this.

But I'm sort of getting it, it's probably because of the way I used to act before.

Foolish and immature.

Maybe it's better that this is happening, we're probably still gonna see each other around though.

On another note, I stayed up till 2 in the morning doing bookwork.

I threatened to stab Tiffany with my plastic Yogurtland spoon for calling me a nerd.

I was only looking up words that I didn't know.

Oh so I got teased for using the word "credible" today.

What the heck?

Photobucket pictures make me cry. I look through them and realize what I'm leaving behind.

Sacrifices had to be made for this to happen though, so I guess it's alright.

That book that we have to read for summer reading, 'The Alchemist," it's really a life-changing book.

At first I though, no way is that going to happen to me.

But it opened my eyes to a lot of things.

When he talked about the four obstacles we face when trying to accomplish something we want to do I realized that I've faced every single one, but not the last.

No, but seriously.

The book is good.

If we didn't have to take notes on this, I think it would have been more enjoyable.

I feel like I'm analyzing it and breaking apart the true meaning until it irritates me so much I don't want to read anymore and I forget what I was even reading about.

Oh well.

It's 12:33 I'll post this when the time hits.

Which is in a few seconds.

Fireworks

I think I wrote this on the Fourth.

That night, when I got home.

Had to put it somewhere since I didn't feel like trashing it.

And those fireworks, were like some beautiful disaster
lighting up the night sky
and all we could do
was stare up dumbfounded into the twinkling lights
it was so close, yet so far
i just wanted to reach out and touch those rays of brilliance
hide it in my pocket and take a bit of it home to keep forever
those sparkling lights exploding in the darkness
was like a controlled chaos
and even though the sound was deafening
it didn't matter
because for once in that long night, maybe for that one moment
i'd have to say everything was pretty much perfect
and i couldn't have wished to be any place else
when it was all over, there was the small moment of silence
and being the kids we are
we couldn't help but stand there a little bit longer
as if we could force the moment to rewind itself
so we could enjoy it all over again.

Because it's so LEGIT

So yeah, Eun-young and I are starting this new trend.

We're bringing this strange, east coast phrase that we've both heard.

Strange, like, LEGIT.

And we are also talking about how one day we will take a trip to Korea & Japan.

And we're taking Riki with us. Riki I hope you read this when you're not doing AP homework.

I think you're crazy, taking AP. Lol, but you're smart enough so I wish you the best of luck ^^

Hm, well I leave for Cali next week Thursday.

I just wish I didn't have to take this huge brace with me.

I think it's kind of crazy how things are getting better this summer.

Because when it started, it was kind of sort of pretty much no good and horrible.

Fun fun fun.

Michael Jackson's funeral was today.

It's playing on MTV right as I'm typing this.

Okay so I just thought I'd rant on how much I seriously miss playing volleyball.

Maybe it's just me being spoiled but I've traveled every summer to go to

Junior Olympics or JVDA.

Sitting at home watching everybody else go just doesn't feel right.

CURSE you, damn yellow ball. I just HAD to dive. I didn't even have to dive though, the ball was right there >____<

Oh well.

Things happen, can't do much about it.

On another note, I remembered that I had a Facebook.

I don't like all those little apps.

If I had nothing better to do with my life then I'd open all of them (x<

Well, better get a start on my summer reading assignment.

I need to get more notes done so I don't have to do it when I'm in San Diego.

Celebrating Independence

I think it's so hard to keep up and post daily.

And that makes my blog so uninteresting.

Sorry Riki, Dara, Kelsey, and all of my other readers.

I'm still trying to find the time to do it while recovering from surgery and all.

Well yesterday was 4th of July.

And I spent the night watching the fireworks at Ala Moana Beach Park.

It was one of the most depressing days I think I had.

I was extremely out of my element and I felt nothing like myself.

My judgement was blurred and the decisions I was making was nothing like I would have made.

But staring up at the darkness listening to the booming of the fireworks, and seeing the brilliance of light lighting up the sky made me feel this inside happiness.

Strange, I know. They're only fireworks, but somehow they have some magic that draw people to it.

The light just makes you just want to stare.

It was almost 9:30 and we went to Brians.

Yes, the one that's known for the druggies, the pool players, the game tweakers, etc.

Didn't encounter any of that though.

Just merely shared some nachos, made some phone calls, and got home by around 11.

This week was just full of going out, getting out, and hanging out.

I think I should have wore my arm brace more often though.

It's not good for me not to.

So let's see if I can recall the events of this week.

Because I did a lot.

Monday: Went to RHS about an hour after school was over, and ran into a friend of mine that broke my heart so long ago and still continues to tarnish our friendship with broken promises. I really wish he would stop doing that.

Tuesday: Walked to RHS and was extremely sore the next day, it was good to see some friends that I knew. Although it took a huge toll on my legs I walked everywhere. Went to Makiki Park to watch Alvin, Jarvis, and Oliver play basketball. Haven't done that in forever. Walked to Yogurtland and met up with Kristen and Liana. I was extremely disappointed my decision to walk because I saw the bus pass me about 2 or 3 times. Fun. Went to Kristen's house after that, and then got picked up. Aunty came in from California, it was really cool to have her stay at our house. My friends can't even do that.

Wednesday: Spent the whole day at home, went to YMCA in the afternoon to watch my dad play basketball. Ran into Torey, Zach, Austin, and Cody. Shawn bought me ice cream and then Randy came. And at that moment I realized how much I needed to stay in shape and work out :P I really hope my shoulder gets better.

Thursday: Met up with Tiffany in the afternoon, walked to RHS to meet with Wendi. I was supposed to stay to hang out with a certain someone but he didn't even acknowledge my existence when I got there, so whatever. Caught the bus to Ala Moana and we saw My Sisters Keeper. I cried, I think everyone did. I still think 1 Litre of Tears was more moving. I was supposed to go meet up with Kristen, Michelle, Liana, and Janet but I didn't.

Friday: Stayed at home and cleaned out my entire room. My clothes drawers are almost empty after getting rid of all the clothes that don't fit anymore. Made me wonder why I even kept those. Because now I'm in need of a major shopping trip.

1 Litre of Tears

Hands down, this is the saddest drama I think I've watched. Sad, this is how I spend my summer vacation. Too bad. See Casie? This is all your fault. ^____________^v でも、きっとだいじょうぶ〜このドラーマが大好き　^〇^

But the fact that it's based on a true story? That makes it even sadder. I started tearing during some of the episodes.

Okay, so I went out like I said I was going to. In fact I went outside. For about five minutes. But nonetheless it as five minutes of bliss. Wow, what a great summer I am having. Sense the sarcasm? (x I want to go to the beach. I haven't been there since January. I kind of want to get sunburned actually, share in everyone's pain. I think it's hilarious, but I miss getting sunburnt from the beach volleyball tournaments. I think I will go and finish this drama, it's really good.

Summer Called Last Night,

And it's on it's way.

Only two and half more school days. And a weekend of partying.

Graduation, anyone? I can't wait.

Soon my sophomore year will come to a close.

And no, I didn't accomplish the 4.0 goal that I set for myself,

but in the next two years I will do what I set out to do.

Doesn't that sound like something from a movie?

I didn't realize all of this.

How much I would or will miss my friends.

Reading everybody's yearbook entries makes me want to cry!

"Time is ticking;" faster than Epik High.

I'm so sad, but so excited at the same time.

I will miss everyone so much.

I love my friends.

We'll see who the true ones are in time,

but for now, I will spend my last moments with them as a Rough Rider.

Ironic yearbook theme this year.

"Once A Rough Rider, Always A Rough Rider."

That means forever.

Well I'd better study for finals(:

Another Day In Period One

So Marlon and I have decided to do a post.

The topic exactly, we have yet to decide.

So Marlon, what will we be talking about in today's post?

Let's talk about broken relationships & what could have been, I say.

& he agrees.

Five minutes ago I was going through my school account,

cleaning up lost files from last year so I can send them away to my computer at home.

And I found this.

Heartache, heartbreak;;

Loving was so easy

Forgetting is so hard

And you left me here alone

To piece back my broken heart

Trying hard to let go

But I still don’t feel the same

And I feel like an idiot

And like I’m the one to blame

You obviously were over it

And you say you’re over me

What good is it to love,

If you don’t know what it means

You say I was a waste of time

That I was never fair

Even though it seemed like this whole time

I was the only one that cared

My friends all ask me why

I still bother with you

But since you’ve been gone (I don’t know why)

I’m still in love with you"

Strange how I came across this. I don't remember when I wrote this.

Maybe sometime last year when I was wallowing in self-pity in Period 6 English.

We live and learn from broken relationships.

And now onto Marlon's story.

The story of a certain individual who fails to notice the feelings of another person who possess the lack of courage to profess their love out loud.

Or liking?

It's sad, I think.

How people can fail to see the feelings that one might have for them.

And when they do find out, they brush it off as if they feel nothing.

Care for nothing.

Don't really give a shit.

But if you also look at it this way;

It's high school.

We're not all supposed to fall in love now and put ourselves in a serious relationship.

But you know the good thing?

Even through break-ups, broken hearts, and unspoken feelings,

we live and learn.

Walk Away

I am so scared to switch schools it's not even funny.

At first I thought, yeah okay no problem. But now I'm so worried.

I don't think I've ever felt so lost before.

But I know what I want. So why do I feel the way I do?

Why is something that's supposed to make me feel so much more confident about my future,

making me look back at it and feel like I made a bad decision?

I really enjoy going to RHS.

I really think I've grown to love public school. Not that anything was ever wrong with it, but it's made me change a lot of my perspectives and the kind of person I am and was.

But I know nothing, or barely anything about Maryknoll.

About what to expect.

It's going to be Junior year soon.

After surgery I have the whole summer.

And then August 18th.

The date I'm somewhat dreading.

There's about 5 weeks left of school.

And I think right now I'm the only one who can actually wait for school to end.

But at the same time I'm thinking maybe it's time to think this over for myself and get more optimistic.

I mean, since it is going to happen.

Sweet Victory

Tonight was an amazing game.

I'm so happy I can't sleep.

All that hard work, all that (funny-looking) running with the tire that was two times the size of Brianne, running with the weights, running and practicing like there was no tomorrow.

Well, we're OIA Red Division Champions.

First time in school history!

It's time to get ready for the State Tournament.

And we're not going to let any ILH team step all over us.

We're going to fight just like we did tonight, and we're going to win.

As for now?

Feeling brighter than sunshine (:

I think this sense of euphoria is even more than happiness itselg.

Star Signs

It's 9:15.

We're all sitting in Ms. Tolentino's & Mr. Kim's Sophomore U.S. History Class.

Some people are doing homework, some are doing nothing, and some people are looking up horoscopes.

Why look up horoscopes? I mean, can't everybody just take day by day instead of having to look up how their day will be and plan accordingly?

Doesn't that sometimes just corrupt the way we normally act in order to satisfy how things are supposed to be?

Honestly, if the love horoscope says that today will be good, then that rises your hopes and expectations for  that one person that you like. And if the day doesn't go good, then it just leaves you feeling dejected and hopeless. 

How would I know that? Only because I've done that before (:

We live and learn.

And this is just another moment in Period 1.

Jaron asks Shawn, "If the Vice President died, who would be the President?"

And Shawn answers "Condolezza Rice."

Um, WRONG! So I tell Shawn, "If the Vice President dies, the President is still President."

These quizzes are pretty much trick questions that involve laborious critical thinking if you have lack of common sense. 

I just looked at the Honolulu Advertiser,

A Mexican toddler died of swine flu. It's the first case of swine flu that resulted in death.

And it was in Texas. How much closer is this thing going to get? 

It's 9:25.

The bell rang.

Time for recess (: